See todays world through different eyes.

If you read , you'll judge .

Thursday, December 26, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #112

They said if you keep doing this ,
if you keep seeing it ,
it just mean you're going crazy .
Well .

"They" said a lots of things right ?

Monday, December 23, 2013

Monday, December 16, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #110

Semua orang hipokrit .
Semua orang ada rahsia yang perlu dilindungi .
Semua orang punya sebab yang tak semua akan fahami .
Semua orang ada perihal yang tak perlu diketahui .
Aku mengaku aku antara yang hipokrit .

Kenapa tengok aku macam tu ?
Tak pernah tengok orang hipokrit ke ?
Tak pernah tengok cermin ke ?

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #109

Break me down if it makes you feel right 
And hate me now if it keeps you alright
You can break me down if it takes all your might
Because I'm so much more than meets the eye

Heck , I could do this all day long with you .
Because , damn it feels good to be paranoid again .

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #108

Depression is never a choice .
You don't choose depression .
Depression chooses you .
And if you think you can get along with it , you've bitten off more than you can chew.

It is something to believed in .
Respected .
Shunned .
Dreaded .
Revered .
Loathed .
Feared .
Hated .

Getting along with it is pointless .
Approaching it as a friend is just annoying .

So tell me wise men , what do you do when you are the chosen one ?
Because some souls never stop searching .
For the answer .

Friday, November 29, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #107

Actually I've come here unprepared .
So if you think it's a joke , laugh .
If you think it's good , applaud .
And if you know this , sing along .

"They love me like I was their brother ,

they protect me , listen to me .
They dug me my very own garden ,
gave me sunshine , make me happy ."

(Radiohead - Nice Dream)

Saturday, October 26, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #106

Before you kill yourself ,
Remember just one little thing .

There are places to go ,
Where you have never been before .
How can you be sure those places are bad ?

There are things to see ,
Things you have never seen before .
How can you be sure those things are ugly ?

There is a new tune to hear ,
Something you've never heard before .
How can you be sure that tune is scary ?

There are words to be said ,
Things that have never been said before .
How can you be sure those words are hurtful ?

There are dreams to be imagined ,
Things you have never dreamed before .
How can you be sure that they are nightmares ?

Please don't give up .
Please stay strong .

Please smile .
Again .

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #105

I know the cure is to be in love .
I know I've wasted too much time .
I know I ask perfection of a quite imperfect world .

Fool enough .

Saturday, October 19, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #104

Benda paling susah yang aku buat ialah terus percaya yang
ada orang yang ditakdirkan untuk bersama aku dalam dunia yang gila ni .

Gila .

Cebisan minda anak liar #103

Orang yang baik pun ada "limit" kesabaran .
Aku yang tak berapa nak baik ni , agak - agak kau ?

Kau rasa ?
Aku dah banyak kali bagitau .
Jangan usik .

Kalau .
Takde .
Urusan .

Celaka .

Thursday, October 17, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #102

Kau nak Dia , kau perlukan Dia .
Tapi kau berkelakuan macam Dia tiada .

Kau rasa kekosongan yang bersarang dalam diri
kau bila semua benda kau buat rasa tak kena .

Kau benamkan diri dan terus khayal dalam kekosongan jiwa tu 
percayalah cakap aku , rasa kosong tu akan sentiasa ada disitu .
Ianya tidak akan berlalu begitu saja .

Dia sedang menghukum engkau ?
Tak .
Kau sedang dihukum oleh diri sendiri .

Saturday, July 13, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #101

You're not gonna fool me , you know that ?
With the sympathy for the devil crap .
I know what you are .
You're the same thing , only bigger .
The same brand of cockroach I've been squashing my whole life .
An ugly , evil , belly to the ground supernatural piece of crap .
The only difference between them and you is the size of your ego .

Muhd Akmal

I hate people like you .
Even if one day  I'll end up being you , I think I'm good to hate myself once again .

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #100

Don't you understand ?
The blade against your wrist ,
Doesn't just slice your skin .
It cuts through others .

Mostly sanity .

Don't you understand ?
You don't just kill yourself .
You kill everyone .
Everyone dies
Everyone cries
Everyone suffers
From your goodbyes .

Don't you understand ?
You don't just die .
You take everyone down
with you .

Thursday, May 9, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #99

You used to cut yourself to prove a point .
Well it proved that you are an idiot .

Thursday, April 11, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #98

She wants to cut the world away .
So she cuts her wrist instead .

Muhd Akmal
Face it , no one said it's fair

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #97

Hai , apa khabar ?

boleh tahan ,
letih ,
sedikit terluka ,
tertekan ,
sepi ,
penuh sesal ,
keliru ,
hancur ,
sejuk ,
sakit ,
kalah ,
rasa bodoh ,
gagal ,
kasar ,
tak adil ,

Hai , khabar baik . Terima kasih kerana bertanya . Anda bagaimana ?

Cebisan minda anak liar #96

Kau rasa apa yang kawal kita ?

Muhd Akmal
Ramai yang jadi buta sebab nak cepat kaya .
Ramai yang jadi karun bertuhankan harta .

Cebisan minda anak liar #95

I'm sorry I'm not a perfect son .
I'm sorry I'm not a better brother .
I'm sorry I'm not a better friend .
I'm sorry I'm not a better person .
I'm sorry I'm not strong enough .
I'm sorry I'm a failure .

I'm sorry I'm broken .
I'm sorry I'm showing bruises .

I'm sorry I'm me .

Muhd Akmal
But apologizing wont change anything , so I'll do something about it .

Cebisan minda anak liar #94

There are many people out there who will tell you that you can't .
What you've got to do is turn around and say "watch me".

Muhd Akmal
I'll just stand up again and do it again tomorrow .

Sunday, March 31, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #93

Relax your hand .
Let your wrist go .

But not so much .
All right , now try taking a puff .
No ? All right , don't think of it as a ciggarette .
Think of it as the thing that has been missing from your hand .
When you're holding it , you feel right .
You feel complete .
Did I miss it ?
No , not so much .
All right , now we smoke .
[Puff the ciggarette] Oh my god .

Muhd Akmal
I smoke . Again , damn it .

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #92

Don't want to hear about it
Every single one's of you got a story to tell
Everyone knows about it
From the Highest Queen to the hounds of hell .
And if I catch it coming back my way I'm gonna serve it to you
And that ain't what you want to hear , but that's what I'll do .

Muhd Akmal
I don't write to pleased you .

Saturday, March 23, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #91

This broken city sky ,
like butane on my skin
stolen from my eyes
Hello angel tell me where are you ,
tell me where we go from here ?

Muhd Akmal
Sign misleading to no-where .

Thursday, March 21, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #90

Sebenarnya , kalau kau buat sesuatu ,
mungkin nasib kau dah lain .
Tapi kau pilih untuk hanya maki sumpah seranah dan tak berbuat apa-apa .
Kau rataplah hidup kau yang kosong tu .
Kau boleh terus berfikiran stereotaip dan berharap ada magis yang boleh ubah nasib kau .
Kau fikirlah apa yang kau mahu .

Tapi izinkan aku ketawakan kau semahu-mahunya .
Pada aku hidup kau yang sedih tu gurauan besar yang patut disiarkan dikaca tv .
Belum pernah jumpa orang macam kau .
Heck , dunia belum ada label untuk orang macam kau .

Muhd Akmal
Nak jadi orang bodoh , jiwa kena kuat brother . Baru orang tak ketawakan kau .

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #89

Can't stand me ?
Forgive me .
I'm not here to be a pain .
When this is over , I'll go away .

I promise I'll leave .
I'll just be a bad memories to you .

Muhd Akmal

Saturday, March 9, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #88

My anger is so out of control , I’m ashamed to say that I've said it out loud , but my anger is mainly directed at objects which I’ve broken in a fit of rage . 
I hate it , because when I’m in an angry moment it feels like I’m not in control , and that’s a scary thing , because I never know what I'll do next .
I spent half of my life with uncontrollable anger .
I get angry when people try to tell me what to do , especially when I know they are right .

I lock myself away , counting 1 to 10 in my head whilst breathing in; hold my breath and do the same counting out .

I don't think of anything but my breathing .

Yes , that guy was me . Want to know how I calmed myself down ?

- Wudhuk , istighfar dan ingat tuhan la brother .
- Ceritalah pada yang sudi mendengar , coretlah pada yang sudi membaca , dan mintalah pada yang sentiasa memakbulkan .

Muhd Akmal
Anger is a strong emotion . It's okay to be angry but don't let it take control , because anger won't fix anything .

Thursday, February 28, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #87

Will your system be alright
when you dream of home tonight
there is no message we're receiving
let me know , is your heart still beating ?

Muhd Akmal
Are we human or are we dancer ?

Saturday, February 16, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #86

I'm tired of holding on to all the things I ought to leave behind
It's really getting old and I think I need a little help this time .

Muhd Akmal
Jujur aku cakap , plaster yang kau bawa belum tentu cukup untuk tampal lubang kosong dalam jiwa ini .

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #85

Once I rose above the noise and confusion
Just to get a glimpse beyond this illusion
I was soaring ever higher , but I flew too high
Though my eyes could see I still was a blind man
Though my mind could think I still was a mad man
I hear the voices when I'm dreaming ,
I can hear them say

Carry on my wayward son,
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more

Masquerading as a man with a reason
My charade is the event of the season
And if I claim to be a wise man , well it surely means that I don't know
On the stormy sea of moving emotion
Tossed about , I'm like a ship on the ocean
I set a course for winds of fortune,
But I hear the voices say

Carry on my wayward son,
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #84

penat aku cuci
penat aku sapu ubat
penat aku balut
senang-senang je kau datang bikin luka lagi .

Muhd Akmal

Monday, January 21, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #83

Tengok sini .
Tengoklah pedih parut luka yang singgah kat sini .
Brutal kan ?
Kalau ini kau dah labelkan kronik , aku percaya ada yang lebih kronik kat luar sana .

Dan kalau aku yang kau label kronik ni masih ada kekuatan untuk bangkit dari tempat tidur dan teruskan hidup ,
aku rasa kau akan okay punya .

Muhd Akmal
It's a brand new day brother , smile .

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #82

Selalunya terdapat 3 cerita .
Cerita dia , cerita mereka , dan cerita sebenar .

Muhd Akmal
Apa boleh buat , kita mana ada hak nak tutup mulut orang ?

Friday, January 11, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #81

Mereka kata ,
"Kau ni hati batu"
"Kau ni takde perasaan"

"Macam ada suis je untuk kau on/off emosi kau"

Ye ke ?
Kalau la kalian tahu betapa gelap dan rapuhnya jiwa ni 

ditambah pula dengan luka - luka dan parut yang tak pernah hilang ,
tak mungkin kau senang senang nak cakap aku sebegitu .

Muhd Akmal
Periksa segala dimensi sebelum buat konklusi , hati - hati kawan .

Thursday, January 3, 2013

Cebisan minda anak liar #80

If dreams come true
then you and I would make a two
And if I had one more
I'd dream that I stayed all night in front of your door
And while my parents would say 

'Son , now's the time to play the next card to your chest , it's time to leave and forget'

And you say baby you lied in your song
It takes all my courage not to sing along
And now my beating heart belongs to my drum

My dreams doesn't have to be beautiful .
My dreams doesn't have to come true .
I'm just glad it was there and it was worth living for .

Muhd Akmal
Waiting never quite felt like waiting when waiting was with you .